Poladroid-ing my life

Here you have a peek into my life with the help of my handy Blackberry and Poladroid. Love it.

New haircut, I’m digging it.

How do I know my boyfriend is awesome?

When I tell him “We’ll watch the movie in a bit, just let me post some Shiina Ringo pictures on Tumblr and we’ll get to it”…

And he’s all “Sure hun, if you want, you can show me more of those new Lady Gaga songs you liked while you do it”

❤ ❤ This man has my heart, and I had never felt more in love.

 

 

 

Love,

 

 

Downhill

It’s 5:50 in the morning, and I can’t sleep. I have this horrible migraine, this hell of a throat ache (Did I tell you it wasn’t the flu, but Laryngitis?) slight fever, oh! and the hiccups.

I am drinking tea, since tea is the new coffee. About 10 minutes ago, while I was preparing it, I realized it became hipster somehow. But anyways, I’ve always liked tea, even before it was cool to drink it (See? I can be hipster too) I like it strong with lots of sugar, and I prefer to drink it at home, not in social gatherings, coffee is for making a good impression on others. Unless it’s Chai tea, but that’s a whole other story.

Last year my boyfriend gifted me with a bag of herbs and stuff to prepare Chai tea at home. I rarely drink it because it’s too special and I save it for equally special moments, like when I’m alone and once with him.

I just heard about 4 Buffy the Vampire Slayer episodes while I was hiding under the bed, thinking it may help me sleep (not at all). I missed Buffy like hell, now that was a good show. It bring me memories from when I was in junior high and first getting into all that wicca stuff (yes, I’m a practicer and I’ve been for about 12 years, do your homework kids), and Willow was just so fantastic and so misleading. I adored her, she was obviously my favorite character.

I’m starting to give up hope on sleeping right now, even though the tea is working wonders on my headache, I still feel all shaky and kind of depressed to be honest. I have so much to do, and I’ve been hating to stay in front of the computer for long periods of time. My head and my eyes just can’t stand it.

Lately, the magic and wonders of this self-imposed exile I’ve been going through has been rubbing off a bit, yet I don’t feel good enough to face the world. I just want to go low profile for a while more. I need to think about a lot of things. Fernando has been such a great support ever since this whole thing started, I couldn’t possibly ask for a more perfect boyfriend. He makes me swoon, literally. I think I’ll take a couple of more weeks and then I’ll go back to the world.

To be really honest with you, I feel so full of memories, I can’t stand them. Some how I feel the same sadness and abandonment I felt about 10 years ago when I was living in Ciudad Juarez. I can’t make it right, and I need to wash it off, but first I need to finish my laryngitis meds, cause all of these are side effects from them. Gosh, I wish I could at least prevent the tummy ache that kills me about 20 minutes after I have them.

But anyway, I’m going to go give dreams a try again, we’ll see how it works, who knows, I may fall asleep.

Your abnormally pessimist,

Love.Love.Love

And ‘I love…’ list to cheer this girl up. (Awesome things that sometimes go unnoticed when I am depressed, which I am)

• My cat, cause she missed me so much she can barely stop hugging me. I love her, she’s so fantastic, I took this pic last Wednesday.
• Last night’s conversation with my boyfriend, he’s so understanding. Thank you for being the amazing man you are, love.
• Getting a hair cut. I needed it
• Organizing my house, and going through old documents finding things I thought to be lost.

• Watching Equilibrium with my boyfriend. I’ve been wanting to watch it for a while and he was a sweet heart and got it for me.
• Fernando. ❤
• Discovering I have so much creative freedom in most of my classes.
• Quitting a bit of my Online life, to start living a bit more.
• Ordering Multi+Daily Glow from Genuine Health, and receiving a skin care kit from Clinique.
• Trying to  get new good habits like exercising regularly, taking vitamins every day, and keeping a daily paper journal.
• Finding time to be with myself.

• Emilie Autumn’s Shalott. Nothing to say, I just love it.
• Spending time with my mom. She’s sick and I miss her.
• Don’t really caring about people saying I’m now a Libra, I couldn’t really be any more Scorpio than I am.
• Otona.
• Being able to go after some thing I’ve been wanting for a while.
• Having awkward conversations and being a grown up about them.
• The amazing marshmallow scented body cream Divymode gifted me with. It’s so yummy I can’t stop using it.

I need to remind myself, everything in this moment is worth loving.

Best of 2010

I found this on TUMBLR a few days ago, and I thought it was a good idea to incorporate into the “End of 2010” posts. So here you go.

1) BUDDY OF THE YEAR?
I love all of my friends, pretty much equally (As I don’t consider a lot of people as a friend, they already pretty damn special in my heart), but this year, Gelial and I had to share a lot and we finally came to terms about our past.

2) LIFETIME SERVICE AWARD (longest friend)
My lovely Charlotte would have to go here. I can’t really recall how long has it been since we met, but damn it’s been long. This year we got to spend a little more time together than usual due to her constantly coming back from USA, and it was awesome.

3) NEWCOMER AWARD – COOLEST NEWEST FRIEND/s?
I met a lot of new people in my new school, I think I am yet to consider them friends, but there was this girl who did an awesome thing for me back in November, so I’ll say Yunuen.

3) HIGHEST POINT OF THE YEAR?
March… I had plenty other good moments, but still, March was amazing.

4) LOWEST POINT OF THE YEAR?
April…

5) BEST HOLIDAY?
My Anniversary with my boyfriend.

6) YOUR SONG FOR 2010?
Zettai Unmei Mokushiroku – Utena’s Soundtrack

7) BEST MOVIE FOR 2010?
Inception, I swear, I loved it so much.

8) WHO DID YOU SPEND VALENTINES WITH AND WHERE?
Honestly, I can’t remember, I think it was an absolutely meaningless day to me, since back then I wasn’t that sure about how serious things were between my boyfriend and I (I am that weird).

9) WHAT WERE YOU FOR HALLOWEEN?
A Girl wearing PJ’s. I swear. One of the most exhausting days in my year. My boyfriend and I went o Divymode’s party and I was literally falling asleep. Quoting her ‘You look tired and the fact that you’re wearing pajamas makes it even more evident’

10) RESTAURANT OF THE YEAR?
I think I renewed my love for Truco 7. After trying many over the year, I discover it’s better than many others and cheaper.

11) KISS OF THE YEAR?
I can’t tell exactly when it happened, but it was on a day my boyfriend was at home cooking with me, I was chopping mushrooms and we were talking, suddenly I got quiet, holding the knife in my hand and I felt like I had to kiss him, he was looking at me when I turned around and we kissed, for a loooong loooooong time. Best kiss ever, I swear.

12) BEST DECISION MADE THIS YEAR?
Go to Design School, start my own business.

13) WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS FOR NEXT YEAR?
I’ll have to refer you to this post.

14) MOST STUPID IDEA WHEN DRUNK?
“Sure, I can walk to the bathroom”

15) TV SHOW OF THE YEAR?
Two and a half man. I started watching it this year and I loved it.

16) MOST LOYAL FRIEND(s)?
❤ Genízaros. I love them.

17) HEARTBREAKER OF THE YEAR
I did not get my heart broken this year.

18) BIGGEST CHANGE OF THE YEAR?
Easter. That’s all I have to say.

19) NEW YEAR’S RESOLUTION?
Then again, this post.