Love list for the pony-soul

I’ve been very hateful these past days. I was actually writing a very long rant about things I’ve been holding for a couple of weeks, things that are stopping me from finishing projects and pending work and from contacting other human beings.

I am having second thoughts about a lot of things. I wonder and worry, and I am pondering many options. I feel stressed out to the max. I may publish it, cause I need to get it out of my system. I may publish it somewhere else, not here.

Right now, I need to make a Love List cause I am feeling a bit neurotic.

A compilation of things I am loving about my life right now:

• Taking Yoga classes. I am coping with a lot of issues here. It’s so liberating to be able to do it.
• Grey nails. Grey is my favorite color, I could wear it every day, and having it on my nails cheers me up every time I look at them. This one goes along with wearing my toe nails red.
• Noticing a very close friend looks a lot like Maggie Gyllenhaal when she’s relaxed.
• The upcoming Luis Miguel concert in my city (don’t you dare judging me!).
• My radio production class looking so promising.

Tokyo Jihen’s new video. I could straight up die right now.

• The possibility of meeting Cygenta in about two weeks.
• Being able to wear dresses I wasn’t able to wear about 4 weeks ago.
• Finding out a loved one in Japan is safe and sound.
• Making a triumphant come back to the SG world, just before I have to leave it for about ever.

• Planning the Dinosaur Appreciation Day (While trying to remember the exact date my boyfriend and I celebrated it last year)
• Listening to The dresden dolls like there’s no tomorrow
• Remembering why Erika Moen is such a queen (in other words: re-reading DAR!)
• Leonard Cohen. Leonard Cohen’s Dance me to the end of love to be precise.
• Growing my hair.

• Buying an amazing pair of boots.
• Not owning a TV in my bedroom at my mom’s place.
• First second anniversaries that mean the world. Having heart-felt conversations in the middle of the night and not sleeping until 5 am. Waking someone up.
• Discovering I don’t suck so much at things I feel very self-conscious of.
• Being unexpectedly complimented.
• Holding high hopes on something I did a couple of weeks ago.

I’m having a hard time finding things that I love. Give me a couple of weeks.

Love.Love.Love

And ‘I love…’ list to cheer this girl up. (Awesome things that sometimes go unnoticed when I am depressed, which I am)

• My cat, cause she missed me so much she can barely stop hugging me. I love her, she’s so fantastic, I took this pic last Wednesday.
• Last night’s conversation with my boyfriend, he’s so understanding. Thank you for being the amazing man you are, love.
• Getting a hair cut. I needed it
• Organizing my house, and going through old documents finding things I thought to be lost.

• Watching Equilibrium with my boyfriend. I’ve been wanting to watch it for a while and he was a sweet heart and got it for me.
• Fernando. ❤
• Discovering I have so much creative freedom in most of my classes.
• Quitting a bit of my Online life, to start living a bit more.
• Ordering Multi+Daily Glow from Genuine Health, and receiving a skin care kit from Clinique.
• Trying to  get new good habits like exercising regularly, taking vitamins every day, and keeping a daily paper journal.
• Finding time to be with myself.

• Emilie Autumn’s Shalott. Nothing to say, I just love it.
• Spending time with my mom. She’s sick and I miss her.
• Don’t really caring about people saying I’m now a Libra, I couldn’t really be any more Scorpio than I am.
• Otona.
• Being able to go after some thing I’ve been wanting for a while.
• Having awkward conversations and being a grown up about them.
• The amazing marshmallow scented body cream Divymode gifted me with. It’s so yummy I can’t stop using it.

I need to remind myself, everything in this moment is worth loving.